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Read this book.

I'm still mulling over in my head the possibility of getting a second job for a few months next spring (after the holidays...) I'm just not sure I can come up with something that will allow for my schedule. Namely, the time spent at church. I would love to have a job that's just, oh, one night a week and Saturdays. Highly unlikely. But we shall see. Debt sucks, and I'd like to get rid of some of it. That would be fantabulous. If I could just have some kind of jump-start for awhile before I start school again, I think my life would be much better. On the flip side, I'm trying to ingrain in my head that if I keep waiting for life to get just a little better, before I know it my life will be over and done with. Trying to learn to enjoy the moment for what it is.... I've never really been a jealous person, mostly because I never had much and that was that. I didn't worry about it. Who needs stuff, right? I had my friends, and half of them were in the same boat I was. I'm doing my best not to fall into that trap. It would be so easy... but so wrong. And so BAD for me. I'm trying. And hey... thanks to a little fairy (erm... more like Jesus. but Jesus isn't a fairy. Just because I'm a Wesleyan doesn't mean I think Jesus is a fairy.) I don't have to worry about not having enough gas or not having anything to eat until my next payday (which should be a good one. yay) which is ALWAYS cool. life sucks, but it's good too. Too bad the roses already froze.